One day at a time one week at a time.

As someone who likes things to happen now, and loves to plan for the future, these recent challenges have been so hard. One thing that is brought up to me time and time again is the idea of "one day at a time one week at a time." At first, I was so mad to hear this. I want to be better I want to run, jump, and play again. I want to be 2 freaking 3. All my friends went to southern Utah for the weekend, and I couldn't. This sucked. I wanted to see changes now!!! Before the weather gets good, I want to be all better so I can go for walks with my parents. We do it every year and honestly it is the highlight of my summers. Because I am able to have their full attention, be outdoors, and move! (Which is something we don't usually get to do since we are all tied to our desks all day.) Though learning to take life one day at a time one week at a time has shown me that I can only control what I can control in the now. (in my case) If I can't hit my calories even for one day then how can I get to my end goal of being weight restored. This idea also showed me that planning for the future can be fun, though it is also such a double-edged sword. Because when we get too hyper focused on the future, we lead ourselves down a rabbit hole of worry. In these times of struggles and hardships. I have found it absolutely necessary myself focused on the now... I KNOW so much easier said than done.

Really though my dad always says the analogy of a 206-mile bike race he used to do. (LOTOJA) He says that you have to think about life as Feed zone to feed zone rather than always looking at the end goal. If he thought of the race as all 206 miles, he probably wouldn't do it. Getting paralyzed with fear of having to bike that far. "You have to think only 50 miles to my next feed zone, till you hit that feed zone don't think about the next one." For me that means week by week weigh-in and meetings. Rather than thinking of the day I can go for a walk again. I have to think of 'okay this week's weigh in has to be 2 pounds up from last week.' Just feed zone to feed zone. So, for the time being just live life one day at a time and one week at a time. Even if you have to crawl through the day, you'll find yourself further than you ever thought possible...

(In full transparency I'm going to kick each and every feed zones a**. Blowing past the 2 pounds and hitting 3 till I'm weight restored. :) )